Sunday, February 28, 2010


I look at someone in their eyes when I want to be a part of their thoughts.
They say that those who live in their past never move forward, well I can assure you that is a fact. The more I think about my actions in the past the more I want to change. Then again, I’ve always considered my past to be more decent and more satisfying than my present. Of course, there is always hope. When you hope for over twenty-two years you have no choice but to grow tired of it; that is, of course, if there was never a positive change while doing so. Once again, I ask myself “where do I go from here?”.
The mind of an Aquarian is always abstract and has many ideas to share. Stating this, the amount of goals I wish to accomplish are in great numbers; however, as also an Aquarian, I lack the stamina or effort, if you will, to accomplish even one. At least not after being ousted from the greatest unity of all: family.


July 26th, 2008
There is an innate awkwardness to being human. With each decision we make, there is the potential for self-doubt and it is this-self doubt that forms the root of insecurity-a complex emotion that is a mix of equal parts inadequacy, isolation, fear, and hopelessness. Yet these feelings of insecurity that prevent us from fulfilling our potential by inducing us to abide by arbitrary self-limitations are nothing more than erroneous perceptions. We feel unconfident and unsure of ourselves because we judge ourselves to be so. Banishing insecurity is often simply a matter of challenging ourselves in order to prove that we are indeed intelligent and able.


When we feel insecure, we not only perceive ourselves as incapable of meeting life's challenges but also fraudulent and unworthy of true happiness. We move through life plagued by a sense that others have judged us and found that we are lacking. As a result, we are robbed of our personal power and rendered unable to feel positive about the choices we make. Everyone feels insecure from time to time because each of us is born into the world with unique strengths. If you should find yourself with feelings of insecurity, however, endeavor to understand its source. Perhaps you were repeatedly berated as a child or seldom receive positive reinforcement in the present. A tendency to withdraw from risk or uncomfortable situations can amplify feelings of insecurity. When you have pinpointed the origin of your insecurity, focus on your abilities. The more you utilize your personal power-by taking risks, boldly facing challenges, and acting decisively-the stronger it will grow.


Remember that insecurity is not objective. Rather, it is an emotional interpretation of your value unconsciously based on doubt, shame, and fear. As you overcome those underlying emotions through courageous action and copious self-love, you'll discover that you are capable of achieving more than you ever thought possible.



Marcia Johnson

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Wednesday, February 24, 2010







Dash Snow



Land Of Talk - It's Okay



SKINHEAD 1977


Nate Lowman
Craig McDean


Homme Endormi (1931)
Pavalt Fedorovitch Tchelitchew


One Hour With You (1932)


Jeanette MacDonald


Pavel Tchelitchew


Joe Dallesandro


Velvet Underground with Andy Warhol & Nico 1966
Gerard Malanga


La Charmeuse de Serpents
Paul Desire Trouillebert


The Light of The World
William Holman Hunt


The Sea of Maidens
Evelyn de Morgan


The Snake Charmer
Jean Leon Gerome


Ariadne in Naxos
Evelyn de Morgan


Flaming June
Lord Frederick Leighton



The Dream 1910
The Sleeping Gypsy 1897

Henri Rousseau

Tuesday, February 23, 2010





Michael Oats
http://michaeloats.blogspot.com


The Juggler 1931
Pav Tchelitchew


Jessica Stam
Peter Lindbergh


Denham Fouts


Adolf Hitler and Prince Paul of Yugoslavia


Jared Leto

...and in your mind I will always remain, and in your heart I will always have space.

Monday, February 22, 2010


Sometimes I just want to disappear, but I know I can't: I've yet to experience the brighter side of my life.



Natunia S.




Melancholic Mr. Bulb
Natunia S.
Dear God, I'm writing this letter to you,
cause I don't have a clue, can you help me?
I'm sitting here, simply trying to figure out,
what my life's all about, can you tell me?
I never wanted to be, the person you see,
can you tell me who I am?
I always wanted to die, but you kept me here alive,
can you tell me who I am?
I lie awake conducting this symphony,
that you have gifted to me, I can't ever sleep,
don't get mad, but I get weak inside,
and I start to fall apart, cause I feel nothing,
I never wanted to be, some kind of comic relief,
please show me who I am,
I've been tortured and scorned, since the that I was born,
but I don't know who I am, and I thank you man for everything,
sorry I'm so frightened about all of it, but I wish I could give you more,
and all the lights are shining down on me, and I feel intimated by it all,
I never wanted to be, the person you see, but thank you,
oh god please tell me now, are you disappointed? are you proud?
haven't I done everything, everything,
I'm so sorry I'm so weak, and I turned into a freak,
but I don't know anything, anything,
I've lost all self-esteem, my baby and everything and I feel nothing, nothing,
oh god please tell me now,
oh god please tell me now, cause i feel nothing,
and dear god I'm writing this letter to you,
I am coming unglued please help me...


Courtney Love - Letter to God


Salò o le 120 giornate di Sodoma 1975



Marquis de Sade






Marquis de Sade